It's Like Living

I see them walk away
I can hear them laugh
I see them smile today
Faded photographs
They're in the other room
They are all outside
They're here and gone so quick
Their presence I'm denied
I see the care they show
It's to someone else
That I'll never know
How that ever felt

It's like watching life through a window
Into another person's house
You see them caring and loving
Soothing other people's doubts
Wanting them to succeed
Feeling joy for their wins
A true celebration
When will mine begin?

Never knew it young
Normal to feel wrong
To small joys I clung
Was a tag along
Silence I was taught
Isolation dear
Never socialized
Friends would disappear
Lovers mean or gone
Always been forgot
Guilt to have desires
To be a cherished thought

It's like living life in a story
Where your small part is penciled in
You see them laughing and playing
Supporting other people's wins
The erasure is moving
Mistakes that I do proving
Not worthy of them using
Compassion or excusing

Don't remember love
Don't remember praise
Spent more time in books
Silently was raised
Never pretty called
Faults were all I knew
Tried so hard to please
Notice me, pursued
Wishes were ignored
Always full of dread
Those that I adored
Broke my heart instead

It's like living life in a movie
Whereas an extra you just are
You watch them caring and loving
For In this world they are the star
Learn to mute my joy
Learn to mute my needs
Foolishly I tried
Never did succeed

I watched him drive away
He never did come back
I see his smile today
Faded photographs
Only one who tried
Never let me down
Life is cruel indeed
Only love I found

Others walk away
Cruel words they say
Or just fade away
Truly I'm okay

It's like watching life through a window
Into another person's house
You see them caring and loving
Soothing other people's doubts
Wanting them to succeed
Feeling joy for their wins
A true celebration
When will mine begin?

I see them walk away
I can hear them laugh
I see them smile today
Faded photographs
Faded photographs

People turn away
When I try to share
Or just fade away
Others just don't care
Accepted life's not fair
Isn't what they say
Thoughts of me aren't there

Learned to be okay
Truly I'm okay

Truly I'm okay
Learned to be okay
Learned to be okay
Learned to be okay

I see them walk away
I can hear them laugh
I see them smile today
Faded photographs
They're in the other room
They are all outside
They're here and gone so quick
Their presence I'm denied
I see the care they show
It's to someone else
That I'll never know
How that ever felt

It's like watching life through a window
Into another person's house
You see them caring and loving
Soothing other people's doubts
Wanting them to succeed
Feeling joy for their wins
A true celebration
When will mine begin?

Never knew it young
Normal to feel wrong
To small joys I clung
Was a tag along
Silence I was taught
Isolation dear
Never socialized
Friends would disappear
Lovers mean or gone
Always been forgot
Guilt to have desires
To be a cherished thought

It's like living life in a story
Where your small part is penciled in
You see them laughing and playing
Supporting other people's wins
The erasure is moving
Mistakes that I do proving
Not worthy of them using
Compassion or excusing

Don't remember love
Don't remember praise
Spent more time in books
Silently was raised
Never pretty called
Faults were all I knew
Tried so hard to please
Notice me, pursued
Wishes were ignored
Always full of dread T
hose that I adored
Broke my heart instead

It's like living life in a movie
Whereas an extra you just are
You watch them caring and loving
For In this world they are the star
Learn to mute my joy
Learn to mute my needs
Foolishly I tried
Never did succeed

I watched him drive away
He never did come back
I see his smile today
Faded photographs
Only one who tried
Never let me down
Life is cruel indeed
Only love I found

Others walk away
Cruel words they say
Or just fade away
Truly I'm okay

It's like watching life through a window
Into another person's house
You see them caring and loving
Soothing other people's doubts
Wanting them to succeed
Feeling joy for their wins
A true celebration
When will mine begin?
I see them walk away
I can hear them laugh
I see them smile today
Faded photographs
Faded photographs

People turn away
When I try to share
Or just fade away
Others just don't care
Accepted life's not fair
Isn't what they say
Thoughts of me aren't there
Learned to be okay
Truly I'm okay
Truly I'm okay